I’ve been seeking the Lord a lot more lately because of our financial circumstances and trying to figure out what He wants from us. And He keeps telling me over and over to trust in Him. And today, in my morning quiet time, He led me to these three verses from James.
6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord.8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do. (James 1:6-8)
The Lord revealed to me that I keep asking Him for a financial blessing, for success in our Tara Outdoors business, and for success with this blog, but then I keep doubting Him. I doubt myself, I doubt my husband Justin, I doubt God’s promises, I doubt whether I’m really hearing from Him or not. And with these verses, He reminded me and is reminding you as well, dear reader, that when we ask things of Him we need to believe and not doubt.
To be perfectly honest with you, I’m not sure why I have such a problem with doubt. I’ve been saved almost my entire life since I was 5 years old. I honestly don’t know life without the Lord. He has always been faithful, kept me safe, provided for me and my family, and done everything He promised to do. He gave me an amazing husband, He helped us start an awesome business that will one day lead to a ministry, He gave me the passion and drive to start this blog which will lead to another incredible ministry. He has given me so much, always been there for me even when I made bad decisions, always led me – so why do I still struggle so much with doubt?
I think it is because in my fleshly nature I am a realist, like the disciple Thomas. If I can’t see it and if I don’t see evidence of it, I have a hard time believing it. But being a realist is really being a pessimist, and it definitely isn’t walking in faith. Faith is believing in things not seen (Heb. 11:1) which is why doubt is the complete opposite of faith.
I’ve been getting very frustrated with myself because of my lack of faith. I’ve listened to so many preachers and teachers and they all say, “Don’t worry. Trust God. Have faith.” But most of them don’t explain what you need to do to not worry, to trust God, and to have faith because those aren’t things you can just decide to do and then they happen – you have to take action steps. So, I talked to God this morning about my frustration and asked Him what action steps I need to take to be able to stop doubting and truly have faith in Him. Here are two things He revealed to me.
Guard Your Tongue
The first thing the Lord told me was that I need to be more careful of what I’m saying. If all I’m doing is complaining about my problems and telling people, “I don’t know what God is doing. I wish He would just tell me or just work this situation out” then I’m making my problems bigger than my God. God doesn’t like complaining. When the Israelites complained instead of praising God and trusting Him, He let the entire first generation die out in the wilderness – they never reached the Promised Land because they wouldn’t shut up and trust God.
I don’t want that to be me. I don’t want to keep speaking words of doubt, negativity, and complaint. So, if we want to be filled with faith and stop being blown and tossed by the winds of life, we need to stop complaining. We need to learn to go to the Lord if we have doubts, or fears, or anxieties, not to other people. People can’t solve our problems, only God can. And while people may try to help, they usually do it out of their own fears and insecurities, or their own knowledge, not out of faith or godly wisdom and discernment. If you truly believe you have a word from the Lord, don’t talk to other people about it except your spouse because no one else can help you except God. No one can understand God’s word to you, His personal promises for your life, just as you can’t understand the promises God makes in other people’s lives.
That’s why from now on I am determined to guard my tongue and only speak words of faith, power, truth, and love. No more complaining!!
Study Who God Is
Another thing Father God revealed to me was that we have doubts when we don’t truly understand who God is. I’ve heard preaching and teaching on God for 24 years. Mentally, I believe I know who God is, but it isn’t truly deep down in my spirit, in my soul, in my heart. That’s why the Lord has told me that once I’m done with my vlog series on becoming the P31 woman, my next series will be on learning who God is. I’m going to read through the entire Bible and write out everything I learn about God in His own Word. And I’ll put everything I learn in my vlogs so you guys can learn with me.
I doubt God and I doubt if I’m hearing from God because I don’t truly know who God is, and I think many Christians are the same way, especially if you grew up in the church. We have so many misconceptions about God and I want to start finding these misconceptions in myself and then replacing them with the truth of God’s Word.
I hope you guys will take this journey with me! As followers of Christ, we really need to learn who our God is, we need to guard our tongues, and we need to stop being blown and tossed by the winds of this world and the winds of trials and tribulations in our lives. We need to learn how to truly trust in Him, how to have faith, how to stand firm.
I love you guys and I really appreciate you reading this post! Please post your comments and prayer requests in the comments below. I pray you have a blessed week!